I've found a rl Doug

I need to write, I'm so confused!

So last time I wrote, I may or may not have talked about a letter to my future husband that I wrote. Well soon after I wrote that I met Mike. He was the '3-2-1 guy' on blank slate, a gameshow Kim and Sara got on. We saw him a lot that night. It didn't suprise me. Kim draws guys in, I'm so used to it by now. He was just like all the other guys who fall for Kim....or so I thought.

She had lunch with Mike one night while still getting closer and closer to Ryan. I guess after Mike got to know her, he didn't like her that way anymore. Instead, he took the role of protective brother when it came to her and Ryan. It wasn't because he wanted to get with her, it was because he wants to help her. And I believe him. For good reasons too. Ryan has proven just at Late Nite last Saturday that he's not that great of a guy. Just in that one night he was controlling, clingy, and too touch-feely for the two of them to NOT be in a relationship. Mike didn't like that, and neither did her brother who happened to be there. I didn't like it myself. It was just awkward. Ryan kept pulling her away from the group even though she kept telling him no, he didn't listen. So that left me alone with Mike and Jake (her brother) a lot.

So, when Mike walked me back to my dorm he really surprised me. I mean....really. We talked first of all about how awkward tonight was. I agreed. He talked about how a man should treat a woman, and he was dissapointed that Ryan wasn't doing that and he feels that he is two timing her because Mike has seen Ryan do this before with other Revo girls. He still talks/flirts with other girls. Kim knows about it, but for some reason she doesn't really care. Mike told Kim about all this (with more details of course) and Kim told Ryan, who over-reacted and acted like a complete baby and was a huge jerk about it to her. She didn't get to say anything she wanted to say about him being controlling over her. She probably never will.

My actual point is that I had no idea Mike was so insightful. He knows sooo much about women through others experiences and just talking to them. He's seen the way his brothers relationships work out and he wasn't exactly happy about them. Mike knows how to treat a woman, yet he's never had a girl-friend. He told me he's very picky with girls, and he told Kim it wasn't because he hasn't had the opportunity to have a girlfriend, it was because he wasn't ready spiritually for a relationship. He's kind of lonely at times, and I completely understand. I've gone without a boyfriend for 3 or 4 years now and I understand how it can be lonely. That guy is so pure in every way. Doug said a woman's love for God is the most attractive thing on a woman. The same goes for men. I just don't know if our relationship will be like Doug and Christy's or Todd and Christy's. Or a medium, because those aren't my only two options. I do find that extremely attractive, and I still want to be around him a lot, but I'm distancing myself from him a little bit. I think I want to be around him just a little bit too much, so I'm letting him take the lead if he wants. Even if we would possibly start dating, I would feel so inadequate compared to him. He has really high standards, and I don't know if I could live up to those. I would hate to be his first girlfriend, and be a mistake he regretted. I don't want that. It's almost like I found Doug! lol

Keep in mind I've known this guy for less than a week and a half so far, and I already know a lot about him. But I've prayed about him a lot lately. It was weird because he texted me right after I prayed for us. I guess all I can/want to do now is just get to know him more. I give the rest to God, and I know Mike has too.