Dear internet,
Oh how I wished I actually had people to share some of this stuff with. Seriously, I am jealous of Kristina Horner, Isaac Deitz, and Haley G Hoover who I consider Gods and Goddesses of blogging. I love their blogs so much that it makes me wish I had some fan base like they do just so that I can share my thoughts with a bunch of random strangers and have a good conversation out of it! Okay, it's more than that. It's really just the community I see in the comments section that makes me envious of them most.
Now we all know that's not going to happen...but a girl can dream!!
My mind is boggling and I have sooo much to say that I just get exhausted over the plethora of topics I could talk about. So instead of doing that, I am going to jot down some things that have happened to me in just this past week. If ANYONE reads my blog you should wake up your lazy fingers and comment on your favorite or the one you find most interesting. Majority wins (which will probably be by one) and I promise I'll post a story about it the next day. Here goes nothing!*
*~*My neighbors house caught on fire 2 days ago*~*
*~*I laughed out loud at a headline on our school newspaper about an "Assault" on campus that was more or less like a drive-by booty smack*~*
~*~One of my videos on youtube can now make revenue!!!! How exciting!!!~*~
*~*I have lost 8 pounds on my diet and I'm officially not overweight anymore*~*
*~*I recently got an idea about an awesome video to do making fun of everyday things...but I don't want to be a communitychannel look-a-like. I still really wanna do it*~*
*~*I wanna play WoW for the first time. Don't judge me*~*
*~*Avenue Q is coming to my college in 2 weeks and I am SO pumped!*~*
*~*I stayed up ALL night for a test....and the test was crap and I'm just really annoyed and kinda want to vent*~*
*~*Let's talk about youtube! Like who I'm really into right now...or books. Books are good!*~*
Starting Weight: 171.6
Goal Weight: 150
Total pounds lost: 8.3 (this month)
http://www.youtube.com/greenyroxsox
Subscribers: 21
Channel Views: 2,024 (Lets get this up first!)
*This is a REALLY bad idea. I've recently learned in sociology the more options a person has the less satisfied they are with their choices...so I'm sorry if I caused you psychological pain by trying to decide which one to choose. Guess I'm evil like that. BWAHAHA <----Don't know why I did that, I actually HATE that phrase. I'm not freaking Jafar from Aladdin.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
I wish my dreams came true
Two nights ago (before I went to visit my grandma) I dreamed she was right there in my living room coming in and out of reality like she used to. At one point, she was completely with me in the here and now. I talked to her. Asked her how she was feeling. She told me she was frustrated and tends to make up stuff quite a lot, which is true. I guess this is the only closure I'll get with my grandma. It made me quite happy to see her in my dream and be able to talk with her. Because the reality of the fact is that she is in the last stages of Alzheimer's Disease. She is no longer verbal. All she can do now is grunt and scream. My insides were killing me when I went to see her yesterday. She looked so uncomfortable. And she wasn't screaming when we were there, which wasn't the case for my poor aunt. I can only imagine what she must be feeling. That's her mom laying there.
Anyway....sorry, enough of the depressing story. The point of that was that even though I can't have closure in real life, I know I have closure in my heart. I just wish she would not suffer.
On a happier note, I have another dream I wish would come true! This one occurred last night so it's still fresh in my mind (and very short)
I woke up like any other day...went to check my mail and received an email from adsense saying I had made revenue! I was like oh cool, it'll probably be the minimum around $10 or so. Oh boy was I off. It was $125!!! I was shocked. Really really shocked! The end, isn't that a great dream though!? That'll never happen, but that would be fantastic if it did!
Am I the only one who remembers their dreams??? I mean, I have VIVID colorful and real life dreams. I usually remember all the details too. Not many people do apparently (so says my scientifically stratified sample of my friends) So tell me in the comments if you have vivid dreams or even remember your dreams. My roommate used to have a dream book and I would look up what my dreams mean every morning. Once it told me I would marry a rich man. WELL I'M STILL WAITING FOR THAT ONE TO COME TRUE!!!
Oh by the way, I recently did a video on this topic. Go watch it here!!
Anyway....sorry, enough of the depressing story. The point of that was that even though I can't have closure in real life, I know I have closure in my heart. I just wish she would not suffer.
On a happier note, I have another dream I wish would come true! This one occurred last night so it's still fresh in my mind (and very short)
I woke up like any other day...went to check my mail and received an email from adsense saying I had made revenue! I was like oh cool, it'll probably be the minimum around $10 or so. Oh boy was I off. It was $125!!! I was shocked. Really really shocked! The end, isn't that a great dream though!? That'll never happen, but that would be fantastic if it did!
Am I the only one who remembers their dreams??? I mean, I have VIVID colorful and real life dreams. I usually remember all the details too. Not many people do apparently (so says my scientifically stratified sample of my friends) So tell me in the comments if you have vivid dreams or even remember your dreams. My roommate used to have a dream book and I would look up what my dreams mean every morning. Once it told me I would marry a rich man. WELL I'M STILL WAITING FOR THAT ONE TO COME TRUE!!!
Oh by the way, I recently did a video on this topic. Go watch it here!!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Fail post
If I don't tell someone this I think I might explode! And most likely this post will be private, but I just need to vent and writing is always worked before to make me feel better.
The past 2 days....have been from hell!
Day 1.
My best friend came home from tennessee! I know this doesn't sound terrible, it actually isn't bad at all. I love her to pieces and I'm soooo glad I got to see her. She literally jumped in my arms when we met again and wrapped her legs around me. Just like in the movies! ^^ Haha, and that's why I lover her! Miraculously I caught her and spun her around. Sounds all good right? Well it was! But the situation started with the boyfriend. Not mine, hers. It's her first boyfriend....ever! She's 19. It's kind of a big deal for her...and being the best friend she needs my approval. He's not a bad guy honestly. Kind of quiet, but nice. The problem is that no matter what they do...they HAVE to do it together.
Okay....so I have a bit of a territorial issue here. I was literally stuck with them because my house was being shown in the morning and I couldn't go home and mess it up (so my mom and dad say). SO I had to watch them cuddle during the movie...trail behind them holding hands in Wal-Mart...watch him kiss her head...and then witness the two of them going outside for some private time. Gag me. I mean...I get it! It's a new relationship. Everything is fun, and new, and exciting, but the thing that irritates me the MOST is that I told her I'm bad with PDA!!!! Especially if it's my best friend! To me...the whole night it seemed like they were saying "Yeah we'll talk to you when we want, but that won't be often because we are too absorbed in each other." That's not how they meant it, I know it, but I'm still upset!
Day 2
So I was planning on having some girl time with Charly before bed because that's what we normally do, however, she left me and opted to sleep on the couch. Whatever, not a big deal. But in the morning I wake up to hearing and seeing the two of them snuggling in his bed. It worries me, she has no boundaries, and she knows it. You can't just go into a new relationship with no boundaries! So bad start to the morning. I left as soon as I could. When I got back together with them later, she was leaning in his side the WHOLE time we were together. I'm so annoyed. I mean...there were 4 of her other friends over...even the couple that was engaged didn't act like that.
So based on their actions...I don't like this guy. Not at all. As a person, he's great. I just need him to back off my best friend. I can't handle this. I'm going crazy! Not to mention I was told today my grandma was dying. Yeah, I can't go into detail or I'll burst into tears right now.
Too much stress. Too much. I know I'm single. I know I'm jealous. I know I'm heartbroken. There is no cure. I need a good cry and a good vent. Also some time away. But I really wish I had someone to tell all this too...
Okay NOW I'm crying. END OF POST! I can't talk about this.
The past 2 days....have been from hell!
Day 1.
My best friend came home from tennessee! I know this doesn't sound terrible, it actually isn't bad at all. I love her to pieces and I'm soooo glad I got to see her. She literally jumped in my arms when we met again and wrapped her legs around me. Just like in the movies! ^^ Haha, and that's why I lover her! Miraculously I caught her and spun her around. Sounds all good right? Well it was! But the situation started with the boyfriend. Not mine, hers. It's her first boyfriend....ever! She's 19. It's kind of a big deal for her...and being the best friend she needs my approval. He's not a bad guy honestly. Kind of quiet, but nice. The problem is that no matter what they do...they HAVE to do it together.
Okay....so I have a bit of a territorial issue here. I was literally stuck with them because my house was being shown in the morning and I couldn't go home and mess it up (so my mom and dad say). SO I had to watch them cuddle during the movie...trail behind them holding hands in Wal-Mart...watch him kiss her head...and then witness the two of them going outside for some private time. Gag me. I mean...I get it! It's a new relationship. Everything is fun, and new, and exciting, but the thing that irritates me the MOST is that I told her I'm bad with PDA!!!! Especially if it's my best friend! To me...the whole night it seemed like they were saying "Yeah we'll talk to you when we want, but that won't be often because we are too absorbed in each other." That's not how they meant it, I know it, but I'm still upset!
Day 2
So I was planning on having some girl time with Charly before bed because that's what we normally do, however, she left me and opted to sleep on the couch. Whatever, not a big deal. But in the morning I wake up to hearing and seeing the two of them snuggling in his bed. It worries me, she has no boundaries, and she knows it. You can't just go into a new relationship with no boundaries! So bad start to the morning. I left as soon as I could. When I got back together with them later, she was leaning in his side the WHOLE time we were together. I'm so annoyed. I mean...there were 4 of her other friends over...even the couple that was engaged didn't act like that.
So based on their actions...I don't like this guy. Not at all. As a person, he's great. I just need him to back off my best friend. I can't handle this. I'm going crazy! Not to mention I was told today my grandma was dying. Yeah, I can't go into detail or I'll burst into tears right now.
Too much stress. Too much. I know I'm single. I know I'm jealous. I know I'm heartbroken. There is no cure. I need a good cry and a good vent. Also some time away. But I really wish I had someone to tell all this too...
Okay NOW I'm crying. END OF POST! I can't talk about this.
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