This is my story...

This is Mike’s story. I was attracted to him, and now I’m not so sure. We only talked once over break. The majority of our conversation though is about my roommate which is not something I like. He reminds me of Ryan in that aspect. I’m annoyed. I feel like I’m being used by Ryan to get information about Kim since they aren’t talking anymore. In the same way, Mike likes to gossip and when I’m around him I gossip too, and I don’t like that aspect of me. However, we always have so much fun together when we DO see each other, and I love our conversations about God. I will continue to be his friend, but I don’t know if I am attracted to him anymore. I think I’m beginning to see that we can be just good friends. The good thing about him is I know he’ll still be there for me if I ever I need to talk to something. I haven’t known him that long, but he seems like he’d be loyal like that.

This is Daniel’s story. I met him on a facebook group he created about the Family Force 5 concert November 4 in Columbus Ohio. I saw him there, but he didn’t see me. Since then we’ve been talking online and continued to grow and have a closer friendship. I talk to him on facebook a lot and AIM occasionally. He wants to go with a group of friends together to Cedar Point. I said that would be a great idea because Nicole lives 30 minutes away from Cedar Point and it would be fun to finally meet Daniel in person without being pressured into anything. He reminds me so much of Kim. If he lived closer I would really want to date him. He reminds me so much of Todd actually….no joke. And Mike reminds me of Doug. Who’s next?

This is Zach’s story. I met him on a group too on facebook for the first time. Then I realized that he lived in my dorm. We hung out on game night and since then have been talking a lot, a lot of it has been about summer project and God. When I first saw him at game night, I had a feeling that Todd had when he first saw Christy. I felt something and almost like God telling me “Roxanne…this is your gift from me.” I’ve never told anyone that…I told people I thought he was different when I met him, but never in those words, it’s true though. I don’t want to admit those feelings because it’s hard for me to have faith that such a thing can happen to me. I definitely don’t have the faith that Todd did in the Christy Miller series. But I’m growing so much since I’ve been to BSU. And I pray about him and us every night. He’s such a great guy and I want to continue to get to know him. I need to be careful though. Zach has a lot of friends who are girls and he hangs out with them all the time. Which is fine, but I can get really jealous at times, which is one thing I hate about myself. Also, this boy has confided in me that since the sixth grade he has had to struggle with homosexuality. Luckily he’s never acted on any of those feelings, and he’s come to the Lord fairly late in his life. He also said to me that now he’s starting to notice girls more than he used to, which is good, but he also doesn’t want that to escalade to lust for girls because that’s not good either. I have such mixed feelings about all this. So I know this is going to sound really giddy and girly, but last night I gave him a high five and he pulled me down for a hug, which I didn’t mind. We were also clapping together and then he grabbed my hand and we wrestled back and forth for a long time and swung our hands together, he didn’t let me go. I don’t know if that was him just goofing off or not. The truth is I didn’t mind a bit. I like it when we hold hands. Probably a little bit too much, so I need to be careful with myself. All in all, he is a wonderful guy I need to get to know better and be careful with.

This is MY story. It is unfinished. God has blessed me with three wonderful guy friends in my life who all love the Lord a lot. I don’t want to settle anything with any of them at this point in my life, and I don’t want to try to pursue them if that’s not God’s plan. I’m content with where I am right now. True I have crushes on all three of them, but I’d like to just be friends with all of them and trust that God will point me in the right direction IF one of them was the one for me. Trust in God and fall completely on Him, but not to be totally oblivious to what’s going on in front of me. Sounds easy? It’s not going to be. Satan can trick me and obscure my view. I’ll try to keep my eyes on God. Open my heart Lord because you know what my future holds.