Two weeks on the life and teachings of Paul.
Day 1.
Reading: Acts 9
Thoughts: Basically Saul was a cold-hearted man who hated all Christians. In fact, he even traveled 150 miles from Jerusalem to Damascus to persecute those who believed in "the way" and take him as prisoners of Jerusalem. On the Damascus road, God blinded him and he was healed by another man, Ananias, through the power of God. Through that act, Saul became a believer and instrument for God in which he did great things. Saul, the once murderous man was now being persecuted for the same reasons he used to persecute others and was in danger of his life being taken from those people.
I like this passage because it takes the lowest type of person and shows how God can use him. In my life recently a friend of mine started dating this guy. He used to be some bad news before. He smoked and cursed and was sexually active with anyone who would let him. Not only that, but he was a preacher's kid, so he full well and knowingly denied what Christ had to say to him. My friend has been a huge influence on him. He is now a Christian living for Christ. He no longer smokes, cusses, and he has promised not to push my friend to do anything she doesn't want to do. He totally has a huge respect for her now and her promise to not have sex until she's married. And now this guy is being persecuted through her parents. They do not agree to this at all because of what he did 4 years ago. Saul changed in a day. This guy can change drastically over the course of 4 years. I am so proud of him and I pray that God uses him in a special way because I know he can use the worst of us.
My prayer tonight is Lord please use me. I am not perfect and I know that. I am sorry for what I have done in the past and I am in the process of making strides to correct those things. Dear God use me. I am your instrument. Shine me and make me new so I may sing a beutiful song of your glory. Amen.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Awkward
Why am I so awkward?
That is the question on my mind today. Especially with guys. Some call me shy, I call me awkward. I'm just really socially awkward with them, and I'm not sure why. Maybe self-esteem issues? But I don't feel that much awkwardness around girls. Do they just understand me better than guys?
Then I started to think about my dating life...or lack there-of. I started to think of old boyfriends and crushes. *sigh* Most of them online friends. Why am I so different online? Is it because I know they can't see what I look like and don't give them a chance to turn me down? Probably. My friend Nicole and Charly are so good with guys. They have lots of guy friends and they just seem to get along great with them even though they might not agree on some stuff. I wish I could interact like them, but they seriously seem like another species to me. I don't know how to act! Or should I act? I don't know...I just want a guy to like me for me, is that so much to ask?
This weekend me and my friend martha and her boyfriend went to the zoo together. It was fun. Even though I had Gabby, I couldn't help but kinda feel like a third wheel, and I know I wasn't it's just...UGH! I don't know, just made me feel all sorts of irrational feelings. I was jealous of what they had and I want that so badly and I hate having to sit there and watch it.
And then Hitch was on tonight. Just great. I wanted to spend time with my dad and that's what he was watching so I had to endure that movie. Movies like that just make me long for a relationship more and I think that's my biggest problem. If I keep imagining what that relationshipo will be like, when it finally comes around, I'm afraid it won't meet up to my expectations if I set them too high, but I don't want a dead-end relationship either.
I'm just giving too much thought on this. I wish I could just stop comparing myself to movies or my friends and just be me...whoever that really is.
That is the question on my mind today. Especially with guys. Some call me shy, I call me awkward. I'm just really socially awkward with them, and I'm not sure why. Maybe self-esteem issues? But I don't feel that much awkwardness around girls. Do they just understand me better than guys?
Then I started to think about my dating life...or lack there-of. I started to think of old boyfriends and crushes. *sigh* Most of them online friends. Why am I so different online? Is it because I know they can't see what I look like and don't give them a chance to turn me down? Probably. My friend Nicole and Charly are so good with guys. They have lots of guy friends and they just seem to get along great with them even though they might not agree on some stuff. I wish I could interact like them, but they seriously seem like another species to me. I don't know how to act! Or should I act? I don't know...I just want a guy to like me for me, is that so much to ask?
This weekend me and my friend martha and her boyfriend went to the zoo together. It was fun. Even though I had Gabby, I couldn't help but kinda feel like a third wheel, and I know I wasn't it's just...UGH! I don't know, just made me feel all sorts of irrational feelings. I was jealous of what they had and I want that so badly and I hate having to sit there and watch it.
And then Hitch was on tonight. Just great. I wanted to spend time with my dad and that's what he was watching so I had to endure that movie. Movies like that just make me long for a relationship more and I think that's my biggest problem. If I keep imagining what that relationshipo will be like, when it finally comes around, I'm afraid it won't meet up to my expectations if I set them too high, but I don't want a dead-end relationship either.
I'm just giving too much thought on this. I wish I could just stop comparing myself to movies or my friends and just be me...whoever that really is.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Life's Big Questions
Ever sit around and wonder about things that are nearly impossible to answer? Although they strike up some good conversatoins. I have several questions I'd like to discuss. Feel free to comment or e-mail me with your input. I'd love to hear it.
I've always been intriqued at why people act the way they do. Genetic or environmental?
How much of my life does God control and how much is up to me to choose? God wants the best for us and opens doors, but how much do we REALLY choose all alone?
If I make a mistake will that effect the goal I was aiming at or will it just take me longer to get there?
I know God knows everything that is going to happen, does that mean everything is pre-destined? Or does God have an end goal in mind and he tries to steer us there, but sometimes we hit the break, push him out the side car door, and leave him in our tacks?
My friend and I were talking the other day about God and she said that there are some things that God CAN'T do. I disagreed. She said he can't lie, He can't be unjust, He can't tempt you, He can't fail you, He can't stop loving you. But I said He made us in His image, so I'm sure he COULD do all those things IF he wanted to, as in he is able, but he WON'T do those things, and that is a fact.
We all have our different opinions, and I respect that. I still like to get my point across while listening to theirs. Sometimes we meet in the middle, sometimes we don't. In the end, I always understand my friends a little better, whether I agree with them or not.
I've always been intriqued at why people act the way they do. Genetic or environmental?
How much of my life does God control and how much is up to me to choose? God wants the best for us and opens doors, but how much do we REALLY choose all alone?
If I make a mistake will that effect the goal I was aiming at or will it just take me longer to get there?
I know God knows everything that is going to happen, does that mean everything is pre-destined? Or does God have an end goal in mind and he tries to steer us there, but sometimes we hit the break, push him out the side car door, and leave him in our tacks?
My friend and I were talking the other day about God and she said that there are some things that God CAN'T do. I disagreed. She said he can't lie, He can't be unjust, He can't tempt you, He can't fail you, He can't stop loving you. But I said He made us in His image, so I'm sure he COULD do all those things IF he wanted to, as in he is able, but he WON'T do those things, and that is a fact.
We all have our different opinions, and I respect that. I still like to get my point across while listening to theirs. Sometimes we meet in the middle, sometimes we don't. In the end, I always understand my friends a little better, whether I agree with them or not.
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Videos, Intros and Smiles...Oh my!
This is my first blog ever! Cherish this moment forever my friends! I would go on and tell you about me, but I'll let this video do the explaining. Me and my best friend Charly recorded us doing the Gilligan's Island song. Watch and comment please!
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