"Zach: Do u want 2 grab lunch around 1 today?
Me: Yeah sounds great. Where at?
Zach: Atrium
Me: Okay! Meet u by the stairs i guess! :) Have a good day
Zach: K can't wait."
You would think that knowing someone is interested in me would make things a lot easier, for me especially. WRONG!
Now you could take the previous invitation a couple ways: friends, or a deeper meaning than that. I took it as friends who are open to the idea of something more. I think that's best. All in all, I want to be his friend, but I can definitely see us going somewhere when he's ready for a realationship. I think that's the only reason we're taking it as slow as we are right now. That and I have guarded my heart closely. I don't want to give him too much of my feelings and then end up getting hurt. I really don't think Zach would do that to me, but it's always in the back of my mind. I'm not ready to give him that yet.
I think he might be mad at his roommate for being so desperate for a girl right now and he's flirting with anyone he can, especially me and Kim. I can't imagine what Zach might be feeling. If some other gil was to try and pursue him, I would probably get jealous and back off a little. I don''t want him to back off though. I haven't had a 'real' relationship before so I don't know how to let him know how I feel. I show him in my actions more than words which I guess is enough for right now.
Lately, I've just been giving it to God...every day. I almost feel silly by having to keep surrendering this all the time. But in fact it helps me a lot. Whenever I am anxious, I just give it to God. I know He will give me my future husband in His own time, not in my time as hard as that is for me to accept sometimes.
In other news, our bible studies are getting together next week to speak on relationships. How fitting! I mean really... I'm excited about it. All in God's timing Roxanne.
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