Two nights ago (before I went to visit my grandma) I dreamed she was right there in my living room coming in and out of reality like she used to. At one point, she was completely with me in the here and now. I talked to her. Asked her how she was feeling. She told me she was frustrated and tends to make up stuff quite a lot, which is true. I guess this is the only closure I'll get with my grandma. It made me quite happy to see her in my dream and be able to talk with her. Because the reality of the fact is that she is in the last stages of Alzheimer's Disease. She is no longer verbal. All she can do now is grunt and scream. My insides were killing me when I went to see her yesterday. She looked so uncomfortable. And she wasn't screaming when we were there, which wasn't the case for my poor aunt. I can only imagine what she must be feeling. That's her mom laying there.
Anyway....sorry, enough of the depressing story. The point of that was that even though I can't have closure in real life, I know I have closure in my heart. I just wish she would not suffer.
On a happier note, I have another dream I wish would come true! This one occurred last night so it's still fresh in my mind (and very short)
I woke up like any other day...went to check my mail and received an email from adsense saying I had made revenue! I was like oh cool, it'll probably be the minimum around $10 or so. Oh boy was I off. It was $125!!! I was shocked. Really really shocked! The end, isn't that a great dream though!? That'll never happen, but that would be fantastic if it did!
Am I the only one who remembers their dreams??? I mean, I have VIVID colorful and real life dreams. I usually remember all the details too. Not many people do apparently (so says my scientifically stratified sample of my friends) So tell me in the comments if you have vivid dreams or even remember your dreams. My roommate used to have a dream book and I would look up what my dreams mean every morning. Once it told me I would marry a rich man. WELL I'M STILL WAITING FOR THAT ONE TO COME TRUE!!!
Oh by the way, I recently did a video on this topic. Go watch it here!!
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